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024 ♋ Voice

I'M GOING TO KICK YOUR ASS, VANITAS! THAT WAS A DIRTY ROTTEN FUCKING TRICK AND YOU BETTER BE READY TO PAY SOME FORM OF RESTITUTION FOR YOUR CRIMES! AND DON'T THINK THAT FOR A MINUTE YOU'RE GETTING OFF EITHER, SOLLUX MOTHERFUCKING CAPTOR! YOU ARE ALSO BEING HELD RESPONSIBLE!

[ then he coughs from the shouting and groans. ]

As if this week couldn't even get remotely worse at this point. You know... Every time I think 'hey, looks like life is finally giving me a decent deal,' I get fucked over in some way. Just throw me down on a table, Life. Have it your way because every turn I make, that's just what you're going to do anyway!

[ huff puff huff puff ]

Is it so fucking wrong to ask for one thing to go right? Just one?

[ Private to Rose ]

You around?

[ /private ]

[ Private to Eridan ]

You are on my shit list. What the fuck were you thinking, telling Captor all that shit!?

[ /private ]

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But I'm not human! I'm not from these other societies. I shouldn't be geared like that...

But you are, apparently. It's called being ahead of your time.

Or just a freak.

You're not a freak. [It feels like he's said this before, but he can't quite place where or when. Either way, it prompts the instant reaction of punching him in the shoulder, scowling.]

[ it DOES feel like they've had that part of the conversation before and it makes Karkat scowl.

and hold his arm in a huff. ]

Getting away from my apparent failures of my relationships... Can we go back to talking about my failures as a leader? So you can adequately understand that these trolls can't be left to their own vices?

No. [Reaching out and curling one arm around his shoulders, Vantias yanks Karkat back into a sort of leaning hug then, resting his head on top of his with that scowl remaining.]

You aren't a freak, you aren't a failure, so shut up and step forward from where you are now. Looking into your past all the time will never let you forgive yourself. I understand enough to know that Sollux was told things he really shouldn't have heard, but it's too late to change it now.

I don't regret making you sleep, but I am sorry he had to hear all that shit because you were asleep and couldn't shut the princess up. That's his own fault for talking though.

[ cue the little flail. but it doesn't do any good to fight it. so he doesn't. Karkat huffs and bristles. ]

Even though you say that... I did fail them. This isn't me looking to the fucking past so much as being reminded of it. Can't a guy learn from his goddamn mistakes and try to fix them if given the chance?

Nepeta. Equius. Feferi. Eridan. Vriska. Tavros. They're all fucking dead, man. Sollux is some shitty half dead ghost in my time and I don't even get to fucking see him now. The asshole ran off with Aradia first chance he had. Is it so wrong to not want shit constantly hitting the whirling device?

It's not wrong to want that, or to want to fix the mistakes. [Quit bristling; the other arm is coming around and it's a tighter hug now.] But do you really have to take all the responsibility onto yourself?

[ just... sags. and sighs. ]

If I don't... Who will?

[Lowering his eyes a bit, he stayed quiet for a few minutes, simply holding him like that.] I don't want you wearing yourself out trying to fix things. [Exhaling, Vani shifted his head so his chin was resting on Karkat's shoulder then, arms relaxing but not letting go.]

[ snorts. oh yeah... isn't this just a sight. Karkat should be pushing away. but he isn't. he doesn't know if it's defeat or just plain and simple that he feels safe there, but he isn't of the mind to question it at the moment. ]

What a Lusus you're turning out to be. Shit. I remember when we talked about going out to those Sudowoodo and exacting revenge.

Now here we are, one pile short of feelings jams.

Can't be a Lusus when you've been calling me a wriggler for months. [Rolling his eyes, Vani does have to chuckle a little at that memory.] I've heard through the grapevine that they aren't there anymore. Moved on, got tired of being sprayed with water all the time.

Maybe we'll find them in Kanto and can actually get our revenge.