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ROSE HAD HER MEMO LAST NIGHT AND I GUESS NOW IT'S MY TURN.
THOUGH DON'T EXPECT FUN AND GAMES HERE.
IT'S JUST THE CONTINUED RAMBLINGS OF A TROLL KID THAT STILL IS STUCK IN PINK, FLESHY ATTIRE.
PROCEED AT YOUR OWN DISCRETION.
YOU HAVE BEEN FUCKING WARNED.



IN ANOTHER DAY OR SO, I WILL OFFICIALLY HAVE STARTED THIS CRAZY GODDAMN ADVENTURE ABOUT A YEAR AGO.
FOR HUMANS, I SUPPOSE THAT IS A LONG TIME
BUT FOR TROLLS, THAT'S ONLY REALLY THE EQUIVALENT TO ABOUT HALF OF ONE OF OUR "YEARS."
THERE IS YOUR TROLL SOCIETY FACTOID FOR THE DAY. SAVOR IT.
ANYWAY, I DON'T KNOW ABOUT THE OTHERS THAT HAVE BEEN HERE FOR THAT LONG.
FOR WE TROLLS, I THINK IT'S JUST VRISKA AT THIS POINT.
I DON'T KNOW
I'M JUST LOOKING BACK AT THIS LAST YEAR AND THINKING THAT FUCK, THINGS ARE REALLY DIFFERENT.
STRIDER POINTED OUT THE OTHER NIGHT THAT I'VE CHANGED.
ERIDAN DID THE SAME THING, BUT AS A MEANS TO GET UNDER MY FUCKING HUSK LIKE A BARB.
IT'S DEFINITELY TRUE, BUT ANYMORE I DON'T KNOW IF THAT'S BECAUSE OF THE TIME I'VE SPENT HERE
OR IF IT'S REALLY JUST A COMBINATION OF THE HOOFBEAST EXCREMENT THAT SERVES AS MY LIFE AT "HOME" AND MY "JOHTO JOURNEY."
CIRCUMSTANCES THERE AND HERE ARE SO FUCKING DIFFERENT THAT THEY MIGHT AS WELL BE PARTED BY A VAST SEA THAT'S IMPOSSIBLE TO CROSS.
BACK ON THE METEOR, I HAD TAKEN TO TALKING TO MY OWN GODDAMN SELF LIKE A WIGGLER BECAUSE PAST ME WAS THE ONLY ONE THAT REALLY LISTENED TO MY CONSTANTLY RUNNING VITRIOL.
THAT HASN'T REALLY BEEN THE CASE HERE, EVEN WITHOUT MY MOIRAIL AND I'M LEFT WONDERING HOW MUCH OF A DIFFERENCE THAT REALLY MAKES.
I ADMIT, I'VE HAD SOME PRETTY ALL RIGHT PEOPLE TO TALK ME THROUGH SHIT.
KIMBLEE, ROSE, AND VANITAS HAVE ALL BEEN AROUND TO LISTEN TO ME WHEN I REALLY NEEDED IT.
THIS IS GETTING SAPPY AND WHATEVER, BUT FUCK IT.
I'VE BEEN THINKING ABOUT THIS FOR A WHILE AND JUST NEED TO GET IT OUT OF MY GODDAMN SYSTEM AND THIS IS THE CLOSEST MEANS TO
BECAUSE LIKE HELL I'M GOING TO GO OUT TO EVERY INDIVIDUAL AND SAY "HEY, THANKS FOR BEING NOT AS MUCH OF A LOSER AS YOU COULD HAVE BEEN."
SERIOUSLY, I KNOW WHAT I'M LIKE.
KARKAT VANTAS IS A RAGING DICK AT TIMES AND I'M NOT SO MUCH OF AN ASSHOLE THAT I CAN'T ADMIT IT.
SO TO THE MORONS OUT THERE THAT HAVE BEEN PUTTING UP WITH ME AND MY MOUTH (BECAUSE SOME OF YOU ACTUALLY GIVE A FUCK ABOUT LANGUAGE AND I STILL DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY THAT IS EVEN A THING TO BE CONCERNED WITH), I GUESS I OWE A BIT OF THANKS TO AS WELL.
YES, YOU CAN PICK YOUR JAWS UP OFF OF THE FUCKING GROUND, TO ANYONE STILL PERUSING THIS WALL OF "ANGRY" GRAY.
I AM THANKING PEOPLE AND I ACTUALLY AM BEING SINCERE ABOUT IT.
SHOCKING, RIGHT!? O:B
BACK TO THE ORIGINAL POINT. YEAH, I THINK I'M DIFFERENT NOW THAN A YEAR AGO.
IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH BEING A HUMAN OVER BEING A TROLL
OR EVEN BEING A MUTANT TROLL.
IT'S BECAUSE SOME OF YOU ASSHOLES OUT THERE ACTUALLY GIVE A DAMN AND THAT CONCEPT JUST ABSOLUTELY JUST BLOWS MY THINK PAN OUT OF THE METAPHORICAL WATER.
HOW DOES LIFE EVEN REALLY WORK, WHERE SHIT JUST CHANGES AND YOU'RE SITTING THERE WITH THIS GAPING EXPRESSION, STARING OFF IN THE DISTANCE, WONDERING HOW YOU EVEN GOT TO THIS POINT.
HONESTLY? IT'S SCARY.
AT THE START OF THIS "ADVENTURE," ALL I WANTED TO DO WAS GET THE BADGES BECAUSE THAT WAS THE POINT OF THE GAME AND WINNING THE GAME WOULD SURELY PUT ME BACK TO WHERE I BELONG.
NOW?
I'M HONESTLY AT THE POINT WHERE I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE POINT OF EVEN RETURNING IS.
FUCK IT ALL, I'M *CONTENT* AND IT'S REALLY STARTING TO FREAK ME THE FUCK OUT
AS I DON'T EVEN REALLY REMEMBER A TIME WHERE I *WAS* SOMETHING SO ABSURD AS CONTENT.
ONCE AGAIN, I REITERATE HOW FRIGHTENING THAT REALLY IS.
AM I, EVENTUALLY, GOING TO TURN INTO SOMEONE THAT I DON'T EVEN FUCKING RECOGNIZE?
WILL IT EVEN BE A GOOD THING?
AT LEAST IN THE VEIL, I COULD TALK TO MY FUTURE OR PAST SELVES.
GRANTED, I NEVER UNDERSTOOD WHAT THE FUCK FUTURE KARKAT WAS EVEN ON WHEN HE STARTED TO BE A PRETENTIOUS ASSHOLE.
YET THERE WAS STILL SOME SECURITY IN AT LEAST KNOWING WHAT I WILL BE LIKE IN THE FOLLOWING HOURS, DAYS, AND WHATNOT STILL TO COME.
HERE? THAT'S NOT POSSIBLE.
THERE'S NO WAY OF KNOWING WHAT MY FUTURE GRUBFUCKING SELF WILL EVEN BE LIKE.
WOW.
THIS GOT A LITTLE BIT AWAY FROM ME.
I DON'T EVEN REALLY RECALL WHAT I WANTED TO ORIGINALLY SAY ANYWAY.
ONCE MY FINGERS STARTED TO PRESS BUTTONS, THAT WAS ALL THAT SHE FUCKING WROTE.
NO CONTROL OVER WHAT I STARTED TO TYPE OR HOW COHERENT IT SOUNDS, NOPE.
THIS HAS BEEN KARKAT VANTAS, MAKING A COMPLETE FOOL OF HIMSELF.
HE IS NOW GOING TO FIND THE CLOSEST CAVE AND CRAWL IN IT TO DIE OF HUMILIATION
OR MAYBE JUST GO COMATOSE FROM HUMILIATION SINCE DEATH ISN'T A THING HERE.

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private

[papshooshing]

YEAH IT DOESN'T HELP ME IF YOU SEE IT THAT WAY.

private

[roemance]

wwhat is it youre tryin to find out kar

private

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IF SOME OF OUR GENETICS TRAITS APPLY SINCE WE'RE HUMAN.

private

[roemance]

oh
wwell i dont knoww that
evven though ivve been really pissed off at CERTAIN OTHER PEOPLE here at times
its not been bad enough wwhere ivve been angry enough to wwant to go teach them a lesson and slice their wwind chute open or somethin
not yet anywway
wwhy dont you ask gam since from wwhat ivve seen and heard he has the wwhole rightful highblood murderspree thing covvered

private

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I MIGHT DO JUST THAT.

private

[roemance]

speakin of that wwere are you guys right noww anywway
i promised gam wwed hang out some time wwhen you wwere close by

private

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DUDE, WE WERE CLOSE BY AGES AGO.
WE'RE ALL THE WAY OVER IN KANTO AGAIN.

private

[roemance]

wwoww wwell thanks for tellin me that wwhen it wwas still relevvant

Re: private

[papshooshing]

YOU WEREN'T EXACTLY BEING REASONABLE.

private

[roemance]

i wwas SO bein reasonable
i havvent evven caused any trouble at all here kar just been mindin my owwn business mostly and trainin

private

[papshooshing]

NO *PHYSICAL* TROUBLE ANYWAY.

private

[roemance]

i wwasnt causin ANY trouble for once

private

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AUGH NEVERMIND.

private

[roemance]

anywway it dont matter noww since wwere leavvin anywway
cher wwants to go vvisit the beach so wwere goin to be travvellin for the next twwo wweeks

private

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**WHY**
IT'S STARTING TO GET TOO COLD.

private

[roemance]

its better than bein stuck in this place its gettin borin

private

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I KNOW, RIGHT?
WHY THE FUCK ANYONE WOULD WANT TO SETTLE DOWN THERE IN A MORE PERMANENT FASHION JUST BAFFLES ME.

private

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plus it means i dont got to be anywwhere near that wweird human guy wwho keeps tryin to make me livve in his hivve wwith evveryone else
you knoww wwho im talkin about
the one that keeps actin like evveryones lusus

private

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YEAH. HE'S FUCKING CREEPY ALL RIGHT.
I DO MY BEST TO AVOID THAT.
THE HUMANS JUST DON'T GET IT.

private

[roemance]

its wweird and unnatural kar
he wwanted to care for me like one a his human offspring i got the fuck out a there as quickly as i could
anywway wwhere are you guys travvellin to noww

private

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I KNOW, RIGHT?
I TRIED TO EXPLAIN THIS TO HIM AND JOHN, BUT IT WENT IN ONE AURICULAR SPONGE CLOT AND OUT THE OTHER.
ANYWAY, WE'RE STILL IN FUCHSIA.
WE'D HAVE TO CROSS THE OCEAN ROUTE TO GET TO THE SEAFOAM ISLANDS AND CINNABAR.

private

[roemance]

of course it did
humans arent evver goin to get our wways theres just no point in een tryin to explain it most the time
the islands huh
whats ovver that wway or are you just takin a trip

private

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THERE'S A GYM THERE.

private

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oh right the badge thing
i wwas thinkin of trying to go get some soon

private

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UNLESS YOU'RE A BREEDER, YOU KIND OF NEED THEM.