I'm telling you, I might not fucking be able to. Seriously, I get worked up and say the first thing that is on my tongue. It's called a defense mechanism, John.

[ he tugs on his hair in frustration. ]

Look. I'm a fuck up and I know that. You're not exactly making it any goddamn easier either. I mean I didn't even hurl an insult at you this time and your whole demeanor changes!