There's nothing wrong with accepting death; there isn't anything wrong with seeing it as being comparable with, or even preferable to, life. There's no shame in it; I believe that everyone has wondered what it would be like to die at least once in their lives - whether it would be better than the life they're living, whether they should embrace death because then there would be no more pain, whether it would be worth it to continue living despite knowing that their existence may not amount to very much. I would be surprised if there's someone who hasn't thought about this at least once.
In the end, however, the difference between the living and the dead is that the living have a chance to impact the world directly. They can change things, they can make them right or they can break them, and they can do this with their own hands. They can offer their lives to change the world because they have a life to offer. The dead can only effect the world by proxy - by hoping that they influence someone enough to carry on their work for them.
I accepted long ago that my life would be difficult; that if I walked my chosen path, my work would be thankless, and that while I still lived, the world would hate me for what I had done - and if I didn't succeed, I would likely be put to death for what I had attempted. Furthermore, I knew that whenever I was killed, it was extremely likely that I would die alone; there would be no one by my side because in all likelihood no one would know, and if they knew, no one would care. Embracing death would have been far easier than what I chose to do; furthermore, embracing death was an option at any given time.
But what I chose to do was something that would impact the world; I didn't care that it was a doomed existence, or that no one would know the full circumstances or the truth behind what I had done. I would know, and that made all the difference for me.
Whether that matters to you or not is your decision, but the fact remains that to choose death is to forfeit your ability to change the world. It's up to you whether that choice is worth it.
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In the end, however, the difference between the living and the dead is that the living have a chance to impact the world directly. They can change things, they can make them right or they can break them, and they can do this with their own hands. They can offer their lives to change the world because they have a life to offer. The dead can only effect the world by proxy - by hoping that they influence someone enough to carry on their work for them.
I accepted long ago that my life would be difficult; that if I walked my chosen path, my work would be thankless, and that while I still lived, the world would hate me for what I had done - and if I didn't succeed, I would likely be put to death for what I had attempted. Furthermore, I knew that whenever I was killed, it was extremely likely that I would die alone; there would be no one by my side because in all likelihood no one would know, and if they knew, no one would care. Embracing death would have been far easier than what I chose to do; furthermore, embracing death was an option at any given time.
But what I chose to do was something that would impact the world; I didn't care that it was a doomed existence, or that no one would know the full circumstances or the truth behind what I had done. I would know, and that made all the difference for me.
Whether that matters to you or not is your decision, but the fact remains that to choose death is to forfeit your ability to change the world. It's up to you whether that choice is worth it.